a paradox of life

assalamualaikum dear...well, long tyme since my last post kan..im here just 4 a moment...to wish a very hepi fathers's day to my hero..
soory dad..for being selfish for which u need 2 cancel ur classes..on this thurs. u'll sit 4 PTK examination..i wonder...how can u anwser the questions without well preparation..still have lotsa work to do...4 the exam..presentation..public speaking..ALLAH, do bless my dad
all u'd done jus 4 our family...
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alhamdulillah..prep nak ke kmb..90 % ..almost finish,..
belonging da packed..
baju da iron..
form, hehehe..surat offer letter x photostate agi..
but but but...nop yet prepare 4 english test..have a qualms..is there any test..i mean placement test
huhhu..otak da bersawang da...alamak!!
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dear mama...
huhhu...after dis..am sure that u'll gonna miss me..m no longer home, to exhilarate ur day..to accompany u..be the daily home chef...bother u during ur evening bedtyme..no more argueing about so many things...

abah...
poor abah...mesti abh penatkn..keje..just 2 earn some money...raised us..

angah..
hohoho..my absence mean ur party tyme rite...u can now conquer the pc..but despite those things, u'll still gonna miss 2 fight wif me..

abg emi..
n 4 u..endless sermon=no more..hihihih=)

adik..
ala, along mesti windu nak gado ngan adik...talk something meander and wut a hoax..the way ur pronounce certain words..huh, completely differ from other..berdosa..pedtosa..uiks..anyone can pronounce jus like my lil sis??

on da way nak miss my home..but, xsaba nak jumpe kwn baru..[wif a bit nerves]..

bismillahirrahmanirrahim...
huh! alhamdulillah..all my undone task almost settle..jus a bit left..well, starting from 23rd of june..there's no more movie..fighting wif ma lil sis, having some jokes wif ma crazyhead bro[s]..rolling on the bed wif ma mom[disteb mama mase mama tido..hehehe]..n n n, motivation words [juz like a weapon] from ma dad.. gonna miss them...all those things do axhalarate me..keep me feel happy [wif no bored] 4 being home..adoyai..ma home sweet home starts to wave their 'hand' to me..as a sign of..'goodbye'...

additional..
drugery=no more..[now, realize that am not supposed to call it drugery, it just some kinda have-to-do task as am growing towards a lady]
ayam-ayaman= no more
ikan-ikanan=no more
sayur-sayuran=no more
hi-tea..being served wif dessert..yummy2..choc cake..variety of pudding..
masak-masakan..
hukhukhuk..

future..
i'll be in kmb starting 4rom 23..strive 4 infinite triumph..struggling 4 my ib prog..make and meet lotsa friends..

ALLAH
gimme strength..
to face da hard wave in front..
do hold me,
which avoid me from being left behind..
enlighten my way
so am not lost and drowned..
correct me when am wrong
for able achieve ur blessing..

ma future friends..
kmb juz greeting us..
tough ib waiting 4 us..
never fret, coz we'll strive..
to further study in uk, nz @ US..
MAY ALLAH BLESS US IN STRIVING 4 OUR FUTURE..

assalamualaikum...dear my abondoned blog..sory ye..put u aside 4 this few weeks..alhamdulillah,
my prob=had settled... so, i can spend my tyme..post entry..telling u somethings bout life that i live in...but it just 4 a very split moment b4 i gotta focus on my undone task[s]..need 2 settle all those things as soon as possible la..smlm pun juz main tlis je pe yg rase...itu pn jus 4 a few sec..i do apologise..

recently..p konvo auntie..so happening..bouquet of flower[s]= everywhere..here n there..then, 'a thing' had preoccupied in my mind...and the point is am i ready to deal wif campus life??..so lucky that kmb almost like school...not to ponder..

i was kinda of kompius la..when i got 2 offer simultaneously...i wanna go [B]..but i heard it was so hard..being there..me=2 ambitious...doesn't mean to look down at [A]...try 2 neglect all those messy..but the hesitation still inside.. so i'd performed istikharah..& alhamdulillah..ALLAH lead my way...show the rite path...

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bahasa 's territory..as the readers cross the line..lets talk in malay..
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hati..hati..
kenapa ya..
ragu masih bertakhta..

hati..
ape, tidak yakin..
Petunjuk-NYA yang terbaik..

bukan ragu..
mahupun tidak pasti..
cuma gigil tiba..
apa,
mampukah harungi..
liku nun di hadapan..

hati..
niatmu keutamaan..
jangan tersasar di persimpangan..

hati..
ALLAH sentiasa di sisi..
rebah?? kembali pada ILAHI..

tahu.. tapi
..mampukah aku??
berdayakah aku?

ILAHI..
moga diberi kekuatan..
subur keazaman...
melatari ditaman impian..

moga hati tidak ragu lagi..
terus bersemadi duhai A.Z.A.M..
jgn merajuk..menyorok..
macam biskut..
biskut chipsmore..

hiihihihiihi...

salam perjuangan buat teman..

jalan ini..
satu amanah..
dipikul bersama,
dijinjing beriringan..

teman..
andai aku rebah..
bgunkn aku kembali ya..
agar senyum dalam kejayaan..

YA ALLAH, Ya Tuhanku, yang membolakbalikkan hati, tetapkan hatiku atas landasan agama-Mu..
Amin, Ya Rabbal'alamin